Surgery

Today, I went to see an Otolaryngology Surgeon."Otolaryngologist"(???) I'm trying to remember the word.. Anyway. I didn't know I was going to see a surgeon. I'm not sure what I was expecting today, maybe the doctor to stick something in my ear to plug the hole... I just did not even think about surgery.

Okay, so I get there and the doctor starts talking to me and the first thing he recommends is surgery. And I'm just like.....I don't know, but I did not like the idea and I'm sure my face showed it. When the doctor left, I asked my mom if we could just leave. I'm not sure, maybe I watch too many shows that involve hospitals and show surgeries, but surgeries freak me out. People die in the shows I watch! Am I being too dramatic? He said it was a very common procedure and it's extremely safe. And he had a lot of certificates hung up on his wall. My mom wants me to get the surgery... I am such a wuss. :/

the doctor used that one tool to look into my ear and showed my mom how big the hole was. The hole is 20% of my eardrum. He explained the surgery to me. He would make a cut in the back of my ear and.... shoot, i forgot what he said, he takes something from the back of my ear or something and creates another eardrum out of that, then places it under my eardrum. and that's it. In 6ish weeks my eardrum would be just like new and I'd be able to hear better and no more ear infections. yay.

I am still scared......... I had a dream last night that I went completely deaf and blind. I don't know how the blind part is relevant but hey that's my twisted mind for ya!