I fell for you so fast that none of my friends understand when I try to explain how hard I have fallen. I can't talk to anyone that is willing to understand.no one will even try. I can't even understand. alonso understands. tomorrow's his birthday.anyway. I still wish things were different and I hope one day you change your mind. or I hope I get over you. but it's like you wont let me. you're a trip, ms. C.

I don't know what this is.

I met a girl and she caught my eye from the start, I'm not gonna lie.

so I thought I'd befriend her. not knowing anything would happen, we became friends. I'd like to think we were good friends. I haven't even known her very long but goodness I have never felt so understood by anyone.

Life never made more sense than when my time was consumed by the moments we spent together. I don't even know how to bundle up words to explain how I feel about you.

at one point things changed and you were upset by how I was acting,. I know we weren't even together for me to act like we had broken up but rejection hurts just as bad sometimes and it hit me pretty hard man it was pretty bad but I'm still sorry for my reaction.

I'm still upset I will probably never get a chance to prove to you that I'm not just an inconvenience...

anyway, I mean this when I say it, I'd rather have you as a friend than nothing else...because like I said, I've never felt so understood. ..maybe I'm stubborn. maybe I'm stupid. maybe I'm in love with you. and I'm sorry if I am. I hope we never stop being friends.

I have no one to tell this to, no one that will even try to understand. and I wont bug you about what I feel anymore. but here this is. I just needed to let it out.