Hook, Line and Sinner

My mom is white, has green eyes and brown hair and is tall. I am dark have dark brown hair and eyes and I am short.

Hook, Line and Sinner is an episode of Grey's Anatomy that I just watched. An 18 year old girl gave birth to a baby boy. She would be a single mother if she had not decided to give the child away to a couple who was actually prepared for children. I could tell the 18 year old and her father were devastated but in the end I am sure they knew they made the right choice. I cried while watching this.

My mother also gave me up after she gave birth to me. She was in her early twenties and after her third kid, I think she thought, "enough is enough, I can't handle anymore children, I am going to give this one away." and that is exactly what she did. She gave me to a friend of her friends. She barely knew the lady. I'm glad she did it though. I love my adoptive mom. I would much rather she be my guardian than some alcoholic that goes in and out of rehab.
I wish I could be a better daughter to her though.

I have only seen my biological mother once or twice. I can only remember the second time. When I was younger, and after my mom told me that I was adopted, I would always ask if she could ever take me to meet my "real mom". At the time I didn't realize that I was probably hurting her feelings... One day she finally took me to meet the lady. I was nervous as heck. When we arrived to her house, she wasn't there. My grandmother, sister, and brother were home though. It was weird..because I tried talking to them and they just looked at me.. Then I realized they only spoke spanish.. I didn't talk much afterward. Later, I finally met my biological mom. In rehab. There was a lot of crying. I don't love that woman.

I don't know what the point of this post is, or if there is even a point to it, but I have not told many people about this, not because I don't want to, it just rarely comes up you know?.. and well it kind of felt good to type it all up.